A groovy kind of love.

I was talking on the phone with Heidi the other night, and we were discussing our hopes and fears within the relationship. Her biggest fear is losing me, and mine is losing her. She had concerns that she loved me more than I loved her. I told her, "I don't know how to keep you from feeling that way other than to tell you I love you, I'm always going to love you, and nobody can take me away from you."

I truly love Heidi, and the more I spend time with her and talk to her and think about her, the more I fall in love with her. She is the perfect woman for me.

***

When I’m feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I’m not so blue
When you’re close to me, I can feel your heart beat
I can hear you breathing in my ear
Wouldn’t you agree,
baby you and me,
we’ve got a groovy kind of love?

Anytime you want to, you can turn me on to
Anything you want to, anytime at all.
When I kiss your lips, ooh I start to shiver
Can’t control the quivering inside.
Wouldn’t you agree,
baby you and me,
we’ve got a groovy kind of love?

When I’m feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I’m not so blue
When I’m in your arms, nothing seems to matter
My whole world could shatter, I don’t care.
Wouldn’t you agree,
baby you and me,
we’ve got a groovy kind of love?

In response

I've come under some personal attacks recently, and I'd like to respond to them:

I don't blame Katie for our not working out, and I don't think anyone should blame either of us for anything. However, if she chooses to interpret my "childish games" remark as an affront to her personally, then so be it, even though my intention was not so. My mention of "childish games" was to drive home the fact that I don't like when people beat around the bush about issues. I said "she doesn't trust me in my situation, which ultimately means she doesn't trust me". So, how would you interpret that, Doc?

As far as "trying to get the facts straight", the facts as I see it are these:

A) She never once said "I love you".
B) She didn't explain her thoughts after hearing mine, just sat and held it in, until recently.
C) She never approached me with her feelings about me, just about "us".

Now, as far as what Heidi did, it just seems like common sense. Mom always said, "If you haven't got anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." I admit, I haven't been too good about that. However, up until this point, I've kept it in.

She hasn't known me for 3 months... that would put our initial contact at the beginning of August, but it wasn't until a month later that she contacted me.

I never said that she wanted me to leave Belles. In the e-mail she sent me regarding the post I made, she asked me to stay away for a while, yet she accuses me (indirectly) of being there 24/7. I hadn't been there but a couple of times since she e-mailed me. As a matter of fact, I was the one who suggested that I leave the site, but she told me she just needed space.

Now she doesn't even want to be friends. Which is odd, since we both agreed that we would try to remain friends if things didn't work out. And if she doesn't want to "put up with me" on the site, then perhaps I should leave. She's so concerned about avoiding me, so I think I'll make it easier on her.

Heather, Kris, if you're reading this: I'll let you know when I quit.

She says "I can't make myself fall in love with someone because thats what everyone else wants." Well, I can't love someone if they aren't willing to love in return.

For Heidi

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

[Instrumental Solo]

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for believing in us. Thank you for showing me that true love does exist. Thank you for accepting me for who I am.

Thank you for loving me, Heidi.

It's over, part II

Okay, I don't know what went wrong... but something went terribly wrong. I don't have the same feelings I used to. I thought I actually felt something, but it just wasn't there. Maybe it's because she never once indicated to me that she felt the same way about me. We had a few serious conversations about how we felt about the "relationship", but never did we actually discuss how we felt about each other.

She thinks I have too many hidden issues. Maybe I do, maybe I don't. All I know is that she doesn't trust me in my situation. Which ultimately means she doesn't trust me. That's something I can't deal with. I'm tired of playing these stupid childish games.

It's OVER! (part I)

Election Day is long over, and there are winners, and there are a bunch of losers. Yet the debate rages on. I say if you voted for Bush, congratulations. If you voted for Kerry, suck it up and get over it. There's always next election.

***

Welcome to your life
There's no turning back
Even while sleep
We will find you
Acting on your best behaviour
Turn your back on mother nature
Everybody wants to rule the world

It's my own design
It's my own remorse
Help me to decide
Help make the most
Of freedom and of pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever
Everybody wants to rule the world

There's a room where the light won't find you
Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down
When they do I'll be right behind you
So glad we've almost made it
So sad they had fade it
Everybody wants to rule the world

I can't stand this indecision
Married with a lack of vision
Everybody wants to rule the world
Say that you'll never never never need it
One headline why believe it ?
Everybody wants to rule the world

All for freedom and for pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever
Everybody wants to rule the world